AM I REAL

I DID NOT KNOW FOR SURE WHAT TO CALL THIS TITLE OF  THIS STORY,  BUT I WANT TO SHARE THIS EXPERIENCE WITH YOU BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE MIGHT OF WENT THROUGH THE SAME THING. 

I WAS IN SPECIAL ED THROUGH ALL MY SCHOOL YEARS,  I DID NOT GO ON DATES  MUCH BECAUSE I DID NOT GO TO BYU. I WENT TO UVCC.  OR I WAS NOT SMART ENOUGH OR GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM. WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND I WAS ON THE FREE WAY AND A CAR WAS BEHIND ME THEN IT MOVED BESIDE ME AND PASS ME AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I REALIZED THAT  I MUST BE REAL FOR HIM TO SEE ME AND PASS ME.  EVEN TO DAY I FEEL THIS ONCE IN AWHILE, LIKE WHEN I GO RUNNING I WAIT FOR A CAR TO GO BUT HE MOTIONS ME TO GO ACROSS THE STREET THEN HE COMES ON TO THE ROAD.  IT MAKES ME STOP TO THINK I MUST BE REAL FOR A CAR TO GO AROUND ME OR A CAR TO LET ME GO ACROSS THE STREET FIRST.  I KNOW IT MUST SOUND WEIRED BUT IT IS TRUE.  I TRY NOT TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THIS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT THEM THINK I MUST BE WEIRED.  WHEN I MEET MY BIRTH MOTHER IT HELP ME PHYSICALLY TO HEAL THAT I AM FROM SOMEONE HERE ON EARTH.  I DO LOOK  LIKE HER AND THAT HELP ALOT.(SHE DOSENT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME.) BUT IT HELP MY PHYSICALLY.  AND THEN WHEN I HAD MY SON RJ I FELT AGAIN A HEALING THAT I MUST BE HUMAN TO HAVE A CHILD.  I AM STILL HEALING STEP BY STEP ON ALL THESE EXPERIENCE.  IT IS A SLOW PROSES BUT THAT IS OKAY.