Christmas is for families

When I was just a child I loved Christmas. But when my husband took his life and my son died of a disease. I gave up Christmas. The month of nov and dec are my hards time. My son dies right before thanksgiving his birthday is the 11 of dec then you get Christmas. You would think it would get easer but it doesn't. I don't trust nobody to get in a relationship not even a girlfriend. I will not get close again it's to painful. Bum hum bug I am mad and angry at the world and hate life. Whew I feel better to get that off my chest. Life isn't fare. But I'm going day by day :)

A dream come true

When my son was alive I wanted to tell someone famous , some one I look up and admired about my son Rj. I watched and read about Chuck Norris. There something about him that made me feel and believe that he is real and true. When Rj died I still wanted to Chuck Norris about my son. Well just this November of 2011. I decided to give up my dream to help Chuck Norris dream to get kick start kids in all the schools through out America. I am very excited and need your help to raise awareness and give these kids a chance to live a full life.
Thank you

Help me , help Chuck Norris

I am a fully a believer of Chuck Norris and his plan for kickstart for kids.
Kicking drugs out of America. I believe in his method, his
One of Chuck Norris books that I read or on one you tube. He said his dream to get his kickstart for kids everywhere.
Please help me to get his dream to come true. I am from Utah and going school to school anything I can to help all kids. I am doing this by myself right now so I'm trying to reach out. raise awareness in your state or another
Help your state with kickstart for kids.
Thank you Lynda

Talent show

Wow when Rj died in 2003 I stop singing but I still wanted to sing really bad but scared. It's 2011 and I enter a talent show and the only way I could make it through is close my eyes. Lol

MY LITTLE MISSIONARY

When my little boy pass away in 2003 of November 23, I would have priesthood blessings off and on to help me cope with things and of my lost of my little one.  the thing thing that stick out in  my mind the most is.  That in the blessing  the lord said; "RJ SENDS HIS LOVE ,HE'S GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT I LYNDA IS MOM DONE FOR HIM, AND THAT HE IS DOING THE LORD'S WORK," 
It makes me feel like that is a missionary letter to mom.  when i realize this it touch me in a way that I will never forget.  Yes he is a missionary in heaven 

Rj I love you and miss you and I'm grateful  and honored to be your mom, love you with all my heart,xoxoxoo

O, C, D

When i realized that i had , o.c.d  i felt releif  to find out one of the things that i have to understand,  why things where happening the way they were.  Even though, i also feel imbarrasse that I have another problem on top of some other problems.  Well i had to swallow hard and take it all in and work day by day. I thank my God, for the the knowledge that I have. and greatful for the gifts and talents that he has given me.  Even though again that life still very hard and frustating because you want to have someone to love and love you back. I am still taking care of others that are mentely disable and being there for them and love them and help them to enjoy life the best way they can.

AM I REAL

I DID NOT KNOW FOR SURE WHAT TO CALL THIS TITLE OF  THIS STORY,  BUT I WANT TO SHARE THIS EXPERIENCE WITH YOU BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE MIGHT OF WENT THROUGH THE SAME THING. 

I WAS IN SPECIAL ED THROUGH ALL MY SCHOOL YEARS,  I DID NOT GO ON DATES  MUCH BECAUSE I DID NOT GO TO BYU. I WENT TO UVCC.  OR I WAS NOT SMART ENOUGH OR GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM. WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND I WAS ON THE FREE WAY AND A CAR WAS BEHIND ME THEN IT MOVED BESIDE ME AND PASS ME AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I REALIZED THAT  I MUST BE REAL FOR HIM TO SEE ME AND PASS ME.  EVEN TO DAY I FEEL THIS ONCE IN AWHILE, LIKE WHEN I GO RUNNING I WAIT FOR A CAR TO GO BUT HE MOTIONS ME TO GO ACROSS THE STREET THEN HE COMES ON TO THE ROAD.  IT MAKES ME STOP TO THINK I MUST BE REAL FOR A CAR TO GO AROUND ME OR A CAR TO LET ME GO ACROSS THE STREET FIRST.  I KNOW IT MUST SOUND WEIRED BUT IT IS TRUE.  I TRY NOT TO LET PEOPLE KNOW THIS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT THEM THINK I MUST BE WEIRED.  WHEN I MEET MY BIRTH MOTHER IT HELP ME PHYSICALLY TO HEAL THAT I AM FROM SOMEONE HERE ON EARTH.  I DO LOOK  LIKE HER AND THAT HELP ALOT.(SHE DOSENT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME.) BUT IT HELP MY PHYSICALLY.  AND THEN WHEN I HAD MY SON RJ I FELT AGAIN A HEALING THAT I MUST BE HUMAN TO HAVE A CHILD.  I AM STILL HEALING STEP BY STEP ON ALL THESE EXPERIENCE.  IT IS A SLOW PROSES BUT THAT IS OKAY.