MY LITTLE MISSIONARY

When my little boy pass away in 2003 of November 23, I would have priesthood blessings off and on to help me cope with things and of my lost of my little one.  the thing thing that stick out in  my mind the most is.  That in the blessing  the lord said; "RJ SENDS HIS LOVE ,HE'S GRATEFUL FOR ALL THAT I LYNDA IS MOM DONE FOR HIM, AND THAT HE IS DOING THE LORD'S WORK," 
It makes me feel like that is a missionary letter to mom.  when i realize this it touch me in a way that I will never forget.  Yes he is a missionary in heaven 

Rj I love you and miss you and I'm grateful  and honored to be your mom, love you with all my heart,xoxoxoo

O, C, D

When i realized that i had , o.c.d  i felt releif  to find out one of the things that i have to understand,  why things where happening the way they were.  Even though, i also feel imbarrasse that I have another problem on top of some other problems.  Well i had to swallow hard and take it all in and work day by day. I thank my God, for the the knowledge that I have. and greatful for the gifts and talents that he has given me.  Even though again that life still very hard and frustating because you want to have someone to love and love you back. I am still taking care of others that are mentely disable and being there for them and love them and help them to enjoy life the best way they can.