LOOKING FOR MY BIRTH MOTHER

{PLEASE READERS THAT WHAT I WRITE IS VERY TRUE WHAT HAPPEN. AND YEARS LATTER I LEARNED THAT PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES EVEN ( PARENTS )AND (CHILDREN )EVEN THEY  MAKE MISTAKES.
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WHEN I WAS IN SIX GRADE, I WAS TEASING MY LITTLE SISTER. AND MY MOM WAS, UPSET WITH ME VERY UPSET.  SHE PUSH ME BACK WARD ON TO MY BED AND WITH HER FINGER POINTING AT ME AND SAID [LEAVE MY DAUGHTER ALONE OR GET OUT] I WAS SCARED OF HER. BUT HAS I WAS LAYING THERE THINKING WHAT SHE SAID AND I GOT THINKING THAT IS RIGHT I AM NOT YOUR REALLY NOT YOUR DAUGHTER     

AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT I WANTED TO LOOK FOR MY BIRTH MOTHER .I REMEMBER TELLING A FRIEND THAT I WANTED TO MOVE OUT AND LIVE WITH HER BUT IT BECAME ONLY TALKING ABOUT IT.

THERE WAS A TIME AFTER I GOT HOME FROM MY MISSION THAT I WAS VISITING MY MOM AT HER HOME, ON HER BIRTHDAY.  AND MOM BROUGHT UP MY MISSION AND SHE WANTED TO UNDERSTAND WHY I DIDN'T GET A GIFT LIKE MY SIS GAVE HER.. MY SIS GAVE OUR MOM A( GOLD LEAF TEMPLE.) WELL I TRIED TO TELL HER THAT I ONLY HAD SO MUCH LEFT TO SPEND ON GIFTS FOR THE FAMILY.
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{COMING HOME FROM MY MISSION}

MY MOM MISUNDERSTAND AND THOUGHT I  WAS SAYING THAT SHE WAS ONLY WORTH FIVE DOLLARS AND THAT WAS NOT WHAT I SAID .  I SAID THAT I ONLY HAVE FIVE DOLLARS TO SPEND ON FOR  THE FAMILY. SHE WAS SO UPSET AND ANGRY AND SHE WAS COMING TOWARD ME AND MY DAD TRIED TO HOLD HER BACK . I NEVER SEEN HER SO MADE AND SHE WOULD NOT LET ME EXPLAIN.  SHE YELL "GET OUT " A COUPLE  TIMES.  WAS SO SCARED OF HER THAT I RAN OUT SCREAMING AND RAN OUT THE DOOR. I WAS SHAKING SO BAD THAT I COULD NOT OPEN THE DOOR AND I WAS AFRAID SHE WAS COMING TO GET ME.  IT TOOK ME A FEW TIMES TO GET THE DOOR OPEN.  I DID NOT NOW WERE TO GO AND I DID NOT HAVE ANY MONEY AND I WAS VERY LOW IN GAS IN THE CAR. I WAS IN SHOCK THAT I COULD NOT THINK. THE ONLY PERSON I COULD THINK  WAS THE LAST PERSON I SAW AT WORK. I CALLED HIM AND HE GAVE ME SOME MONEY  TO PUT IN THE CAR.  I DID LIVE IN MY CAR FOR A FEW DAYS AND NIGHTS.  I WOULD BRUSH MY TEETH WHEN THE SPRINKLES CAME ON AT FOUR IN THE MORNING. AND I WOULD CHANGE CLOTHES IN THE BATHROOM AT THE PARK.  I NEVER THOUGHT OF FAST FOODS.  I WAS SO SCARED TO GO BACK HOME.