C RJ'S MOM: MOMMY MARATHOON

I TOOK RJ TO THE 2002 MARATHON AND IT WAS AMAZING. WATCHING THE FIRST FEW PEOPLE THAT CAME IN WAS SO EXCITING THAT FEELING WAS AMAZING THAT I NEED TO DO IT. SO THE NEXT DAY I STARTED RUNNING. MAN I WAS OUT OF SHAPE WHEN RJ WENT TO THE NEXT P.E. CLASS THEY RAN TO THE FENCE AND BACK. WITH THE CHILDREN. I WAS BREATHING VERY HARD. MAN I SAID TO THE P.E. TEACHER I GOT A LONG WAY TO GO TO GET TO THE 26.2 MILE RACE. WELL THE FOLLOWING MONTH RJ PAST AWAY. IT WAS SO HARD TO FOCUS ON MY RUNNING WITH OUT RJ BUT I HAD A COUPLE FRIENDS THERE FOR ME WITH DEALING WITH RJ AND THE RUNNING. THEY WERE RUNNERS TOO. BY JANUARY I JUST COULD NOT HANDLE LIFE ANY MORE I TRIED TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE. WHEN I WAS ABLE TO LEAVE THE HOSPITAL. I STARTED TO RUN AGAIN. WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL MY TWO FRIENDS THAT WERE THERE DID NOT WANT TO BE AROUND ME ANY MORE. I HAD TO DO MY TRAINING BY MY SELF. IT WAS THE WORSE TIME OF MY LIFE. I LOST MY SON, I LOST MY BEST FRIENDS, I AM TRYING TO GO THROUGH THE STEPS OF REPENTANCE FOR WHAT I DID. AND NOW TRAINING MY SELF FOR THE BIG RACE THAT WAS COMING UP. WELL THE TIME CAME AND TO MY AMAZE I DID IT WITH OUT STOPPING, I DID WALK THE HILLS BUT OTHER WISE I RAN. RJ'S SCHOOL DID A ONE MILE RUN BEFORE HE PASS AWAY IT WAS NEAT TO BE IN A RACE WITH HIM. I AM THINKING OF DOING ONE MORE RUN HOPING IN 2O11.