A POEM I WORTE FOR RJ AND ONE ON MY BIRTH MOTHER

ABOUT MY BIRTH MOTHER

BLIND LOVE

MY DEAR LITTLE CHILD THAT I BEAR WITHIN ME. HOW CAN I EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR YOU.  I HOPE SOMEDAY YOU WILL SEE.

I TELL YOU I LOVE YOU FROM DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. A LOT OF FEAR BUT I DO CARE I HOPE MY DECISION WONT KEEP US APART.

I PRAYED AND PRAYED TO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE. I LISTEN AND LISTEN FOR THE STILL SMALL VOICE.

THE TIME HAD COME TO DECISION WAS DONE. IT LEFT ME IN A BIND FOR I WANTED TO CHANGE MY MIND.

(MY HEART IS FILLED WITH MIXED EMOTIONS.)

A LOT TO BEAR A LOT OF CARE. A LOT OF FEAR, THAT BROUGHT TEARS.

FOR I AM HIVING SOMEONE MY BABY DAUGHTER. I PRAY FOR YOU THAT YOU WILL HAVE A LOVING MOTHER AND FATHER.

WILL YOU LOOK LIKE ME? HAVE THE SAME FEELINGS. SAME EYES SAME NOSE.  TIME WILL PASS BY AND BOTH OF US WILL NEVER KNOW.

DAY BY DAY A NEW MORNING DAWN. I REMEMBER THE LOVE FOR MY LITTLE ONE.

MONTH BY MONTH SEEMS VERY LONG. HOW I WONDER HOW SHE GETTING ALONG.

YEAR BY YEAR TIME HAS GONE. HOW IF FELT, THERE WAS A BOND.

(ONE DAY I FOUND HER I FOUND HER)

IT WAS A DREAM COME TRUE. IT WAS IN THE YEAR OF 1988 THE MONTH OF JUNE. SHE SAID HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE. I FELT YOU NEAR.

MY BIRTH MOTHER I KNEW IN MY HEART, I FELT YOUR LOVE. I PRAYED AND PRAYED TO MY FATHER ABOVE

THAT SOME DAY I COULD TELL YOU. YES MY PARENTS LOVE ME AND I LOVE YOU TOO.

RJ TESTIMONY

IN PRE-EARTH LIFE. WE WERE TOGETHER WE HAD HOPES AND GOALS,TO ACHIEVE TO DO ON EARTH. AND WE KNEW IT WOULDN'T BE EASY

BUT IT IS THE ONLY WAY TO COME BACK HOME. YES A HOME A HEAVENLY HOME. I PROMISE TO FIND YOU AND SHOW YOU THE WAY.

THE VEIL IS DRAWN AND NOW I AM BORN. I CANT REMEMBER YOU AND YES YOU CANT REMEMBER ME. I FIND YOU SOME HOW SOME WAY I TOUCH YOUR HEART AND NOW IT'S TIME.

THERE IS LIFE BEYOND AND NOW I CAN WALK EVEN CAN TALK. AND ILL SAY ILL REMEMBER YOU WILL YOU REMEMBER ME.