A MOTHER'S LOVE FOR CHILD

WHEN I BECAME IN MY TWENTY'S I THOUGHT OF MARRIAGE.  AND FAMILY.  I DO REMEMBER SAYING THAT I WANT A SON FIRST BECAUSE HE WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIS MOTHER.  WELL WHEN I DID GET MARRIED I WAS NOT SURE IF I WAS GOING TO GET CHILDREN BECAUSE OF GETTING MARRIED LATE,  I WAS 29 OF AGE.  WELL WHEN I WAS PREGENT. I HAD A DREAM THAT IS WAS A BOY. 

YOU KNOW LIKE ALL PARENTS SAY THAT THEY HOPE TO HAVE A HEATH CHILD.  WE WANTED THAT TO.  RJ WAS A HEATH BOY AT BIRTH AND A FEW MONTHS.  BUT WHEN WE FOUND OUT HIS CONDITION  I WOULD TEACH HIM EVERYTHING I COULD BY TALKING TO HIM.  I WOULD READ TO HIM THE SCRIPTURES,  AND HE STAY AWAKE THROUGH  ALL OF THEM.  THEN WHEN I WANTED TO READ THEM AGAIN RJ WOULD MAKE NOISES THAT HE DIDN'T WANT ME TO READ THEM AGAIN.  IT CAME TO ME THAT RJ ONLY NEEDED ONLY ONE TIME. READ AND THEN  MOVE ON.  WELL I TOLD HIM, I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW THE SCRIPTURE NOW.  BUT MOMMY NEEDS TO READ THEM AGAIN AND AGAIN.  SO EVERY TIME I READ THE SCRIPTURES RJ WOULD FALL TO SLEEP.  I TRIED TO DO EVERYTHING THAT I COULD DO FOR HIM AND BEING THEIR FOR HIM .  WHEN RJ DAD DIED RJ WAS 18MONTH OLD I KNOW THAT HEAVENLY FATHER WAS THERE FOR ME .  I AM GRATEFUL TO HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE TO KNOW THAT I WILL SEE MY SON AGAIN IN THE NEXT LIFE. HAS I LOOK BACK RIGHT NOW,  I SEE THAT BECAUSE OF RJ I GOT MY JOBS.  AND BECAUSE OF RJ I GOT MY HOME.  RJ REALLY DID TAKE CARE OF ME  WHEN HE WAS HER AND WHEN HE WAS GONE.  RJ I LOVE YOU YESTERDAY , TODAY, TOMORROW.AND FOREVER